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still not myself. Hubby keeps asking what is wrong and I keep telling him nothing, it is not worth the fight it would cause for me to tell him right now. He knows I am lying, but he isn’t willing to push it either..

Plus, 10 mins after he told me how worthless he thinks I am, he asked how I would feel if he took my truck for his Annual training, across the state, if we pick up a travel trailer between now and then, so he can take the trailer.. I told him i didn’t know… the whole time thinking.. “sure, leave me here with 3 kids, and a car I won’t get on the interstate with, cause it is not safe to have all 3 kids not in car seats on the interstate, for three fucking weeks, while you go party and drink beer with the assholes who treated you like shit for the year you were in Iraq with them. ”

Then he proceeded to tell me how wonderful the gifted program is, won’t hear that a gifted program varies by school, and looking at this schools history I am not holding my breath about how wonderful a gifted program may be. All he will tell me is to look it up my self. I have, the school website is shit. You can’t even get the monthly menu till a week into the month. I did email the principal for more information, not that I am likely to trust any information she gives me, I have caught her in lies twice in just 6 months.

I have decided I am not fit company for the general human population, so I am taking a short break from The Board, in hopes of getting a better attitude… Not holding my breath on that one, but at least I won’t be spreading my malaise.

Farking Teacher!

First, we have parent-teacher conferences this week, so short days of school… local idea of short day of school… letting out at 11:40.. and afternoon kindergarten comes in at 10:15 to be let out at 11:40… what a fucking waste of time!

Second, 2nd grade teacher schedules meeting, sends home note with meeting time. I show up for  said meeting, and it is not on her schedule… her schedule is blank for the time I am supposed to be there, but she can’t meet with me, I have to reschedule again tomorrow, because this teacher can’t keep track of what she is supposed to be doing. And can’t deal when she screws up… plus, I have a feeling that she really doesn’t want to meet with me, because I am sure she knows I am unhappy with her teaching. Now I have to drag the kids back over there again tomorrow.

Grow the fuck up already

MEN, have a little snit fit and sulk around the house, but don’t tell me what is wrong when I ask… just say “nothing” then continue on with the fit. Stomp around the house and give dirty looks at random… Argh, Grow up, I already have 3 kids, I don’t need a 4th, especially a 30 year old one!

What is it about family?

Why is it that the tag of family means that they feel free to pour shit all over you? A little background here. I have recently ( in the last 90 days) moved to a new town, which also means new schools. I am not at all impressed with the new schools, in the time my daughters have been in school, neither one of them (2nd grade and kindergarten) have been given anything that they have NOT already done. In a recent discussion with my 7 year old I discovered that they do not teach history or science to second graders in this school, I was appalled (apparently they feel that math, language arts and reading are enough to learn in second grade, and they wonder why US has some of the lowest education levels in the world!) So I started looking for good deals on curriculum to supplement what the schools can’t be bothered to teach here.

I mentioned, in passing, to my sister, that I had found a great deal on a history book for my daughter. Said sister then blew up at me. Accused me of beliving I am better than everyone else, and that I know more about everything than everyone else (not at all how I feel, but I am not afraid to do the research to learn!) and pushing my children to become Nobel Prize winners by age 8. Even went as far as to compare my daughter and her schooling to Jon Benet Ramsey and the next pageant. Whatever, I determined to just not speak to her, since nothing I can do is right, and I don’t need to expose myself to that kind of attitude.

Fast forward a week. My mother called me this week, asked if I was interested in a trip that the family has been planning together, as my sister has told her I am not interested in it (no clue where she got that, she tells our mother shit like this pretty regularly.) I told her, the trip itself should be fun, but right now, I am not interested in spending time with my sister. At that point my mother informed me that by now I should know better than to bring up “controversial subjects” with my sister. Not sure why it is my fault that my sister is a narrow minded bitch to me, but apparently it is my fault… Now, I don’t know what story my sister told our mother, and, honestly, I don’t care. I just wish they would both grow up and realize I am an adult, and neither of them gets to tell me how to live my life, or raise my children.