upset,

I am feeling depressed, hurt that my husband feels I am such a worthless mother, and not to be trusted with my children, And that he is satisfied with the piss-poor standard of education in this hellhole. even more miserable about being trapped here.
Afraid that the local idea of gifted will be as much of a joke as their kindergarten. And that Angel will be required to stay late for it, and will feel it is punishment, and come to resent it.
Unsure what I should do next get a job, put two kids in daycare for someone else to raise, not to my standards of behavior. So that my children can be as rude and unmannered as the rest of the nation. Let sub-par schools give my children sub-par educations, and give up on doing more?
Right now I just want to hide and cry, I feel ashamed that I married a person who thinks so badly of me.

Guess I won’t be keeping my oldest home and teaching her here.. I am  just not to be trusted to see that she does the preplanned work that is laid out for her.

Housework

the never ending chore. With 3 fairly small children, it never ends. I usually take Sundays to do an extra round through the house and try to get it ready for the week. When we have the challenge of kids running out the door for school, and the work week and all. Of course, two of mine are old enough to help, but I am not really sure it is help if I have to continuously hound and remind them of what they are supposed to be doing. Because in the last 12 seconds, since I told them what they should be doing, they have forgotten the chore they were given and moved on to tormenting their little brother, or just spinning in circles in my living room. *sigh* But tell them that they can have some treat later and they will NEVER forget it.. plus will remind you every 10 seconds till they get it… and after they have had it they will tell you for the next two years… “I can still remember when you gave us _____ treat.”

ok.Back to making my house ready for the next week.